Suffering for Mother Gaia
We all have self-destructive urges. They’re as natural as death. They push down on us constantly, urging us to abuse our bodies, neglect important tasks, deny ourselves happiness, and in many other ways intentionally degrade our lives. Pushing against this death-urge, or thanatos, is the natural urge to live. Each urge grows weaker as it succeeds until the counter-urge overcomes it and pushes in the opposite direction, creating a natural sine wave.
For example, one of my big weaknesses is staying up too late. One day I’ll conclude that I’m tired all the time and can’t focus properly, so I’ll go to be early and wake up feeling great. I keep going to bed early for several days, until I start to feel that my level of energy and focus are so stable that I don’t need to devote much attention to maintaining them. So I turn my attention elsewhere, and my bedtime slowly slides backwards. Over the course of a week or so I steadily lose energy and focus until I realize my mistake, and then I’m back to an early bedtime.
This assumes that I hold a conscious belief that I ought to get plenty of sleep, feel good, and wake up each day with lots of energy. That belief makes the life-urge a bit stronger than the death-urge, so that the overall sine wave hopefully slopes gradually upwards toward more energy and happiness. But many people don’t hold that belief. Many people don’t believe that they ought to live. Many even consciously believe that they shouldn’t live, and push steadily downwards to help their urge to die overcome their natural survival instinct and fear of pain.
If that last sentence seems too extreme, consider New Yorker Colin Beavan aka No Impact Man, whose family is several months into a year-long experiment in living the radical environmental lifestyle, which he summarizes as:
For one year, my wife, my 2-year-old daughter, my dog and I, while living in the middle of New York City, are attempting to live without making any net impact on the environment. In other words, no trash, no carbon emissions, no toxins in the water, no elevators, no subway, no products in packaging, no plastics, no air conditioning, no TV, no toilets… (more…)